The Roller Coaster Ride

Well well well, seems like good things doesn't last... Sigh!! After two days of good breastfeeding, I rested another day because of sore nipples again. Poor Rachael had been on bottle the whole day. I feel lousy but I had to rest. 

Mum went out to pray to dad and my ancestors for Rachael's full month, leaving me alone with Rachael. It can be madness really. I was only starting to pump and Rachael cried for milk. Halfway through the doorbell rang and I had to quickly put on my clothes to receive a parcel. It sucks! Nevertheless, it's over. I hope such things will not happen again. If my nipples are not sore, I could have breastfed Rachael and wouldn't be in such a frenzy. 

Anyway, after complaining and asking for advice, Shun Ai said I will get used to the pain. What??!!! You mean it will not get better? Gosh... I can't imagine. I just hope that today my nipples will be well to serve its purpose.

The day before, I tried on the Ergo Carrier for the first time and realised that Rachael loves it! She fell asleep within 1min after I covered her with the hood!!! She's so cute in it. 

I need to master the art of breastfeeding in the carrier. 

Dear Father, 

Your grace is sufficient for me. You give me strength when I am weak. I pray that You will constantly heal my nipples and breast. Help me in breastfeeding the child that You had blessed me with. Let me not experience so much pain in the process. It is possible because it happened before and all things are possible! So I pray that healing takes place right now and I will be totally healed by the time Rachael wakes up for milk. I pray that there will not be anymore engorgement and that my body will regulate the milk based on Rachael's demands. I sincerely pray all these in Jesus' most precious name. Amen!